You are my daughter, in whom I am well pleased.

This week I was very discouraged about my progress in the KNOWN program.

The wish list exercise was particularly hard as it brought up a lot of intense emotions. I could feel my body super tense because the idea of "expressing my desires to God the Father" was too scary.

I didn't feel worthy of desiring anything. I felt stuck and afraid. However, I forced myself to write the wish list without paying too much attention to the critical inner dialogue. When I was done with my list, I read it a few times and realized that I have a deep fear of rejection and that at the core of my desires is freedom.

Freedom to love well - myself & others and most importantly God.

So, I brought this wish list to God the Father through imaginative prayer.

Suddenly, I saw myself as a teenager seated at a table next to God the Father. I gave him my journal and asked him what he thought about my desires but He didn't respond. He simply looked at me as tears were rolling down his eyes. His reaction made me so mad that I yelled multiple times: please say something! I was both angry and sad. After this, my mind went dark. I felt so rejected by God the Father.

Suddenly, I was in the scene of the Baptism of the Lord. I saw myself coming out of the water with Jesus and He was looking at me with a big smile on His face. We were both dressed in white and were soaking wet coming out of the water. Next, I saw the Blessed Mother right at the shore waiting for me. As I was coming out of the water with Jesus, the Holy Spirit descended upon me like a dove. Then, a cloud from heaven opened up and the Father's voice proclaimed "this is my daughter in whom I am well pleased".

Immediately after, a bright light came from the sky as the Father came down from heaven. He stood in front of me and Jesus and exclaimed three times in a loud voice (more like a lion's roar), "you're my daughter in whom I am well pleased. Now, let that sink in!"

The whole earth was shaken with a strong wind blowing over me. I could feel my entire body bent backwards because His presence was so intense.

At this point, God the Father said:

Be Still and Know I am God.

Your desires are good desires.

You desire freedom.

I hold your desires deep in my heart.

I care about your loved ones, your children, your husband, your mom.

I have a big plan for your life. You're just to be still!

Then, the Father proclaimed in a loud voice that He is "the God of the Universe, all powerful, all knowing, all loving."

When He said this, I saw images of the forces of nature, the galaxies, the oceans, the desert, the mountains, the waterfalls playing like a movie scene.

Then He told me that I have everything I need. "I gave you my son, He said. He came to earth to die for you; and I gave you the Holy Spirit, Mary, the angels and the saints in heaven. They are all rooting for you." I could see the angels and saints in heaven up in the sky hovering over me. The Father concluded by saying: "You have my heart & I want your heart".

At the end of my meditation I saw Jesus, the Holy Spirit (as a dove), Mary and God the Father embracing me in a big group hug. I felt so loved, so protected. I said to myself, "I am the daughter of the God of the universe and He's well pleased with me. I have his DNA and his heart is mine."

The fear left me immediately. God the Father set me free. I still can't believe how fierce and loving He was in my meditation. I can't believe I have His heart. I can't believe that He is so well pleased with me. God is good!

Thank you, Isaac. Thank you for your faithfulness, your vulnerability, your Yes. I am so blessed by the Known program and the beautiful people that openly share their hearts each week.

I am still letting all this "sink in."